"It's something familiar in a desperately unfamiliar place. I probably would've kept going to church if I could find one in London."

It's not the first time he's thought of it, what his life might be like at a university in London. He wonders if he could find a church, or a Catholic community, or if he would have left it all behind like his uncle tried to.

"Or maybe I would've just... left it, like Brendan did."